a situation

perhaps i am just one of those people
who continually finds themselves
in situations

(every time you see me, my friend, i have an "update"
a new thing to report about them or her or whatever)

what does that mean?
by virtue of being human, we exist constantly in a situation
it's called being alive, yes?
i am not a special person.

conflicted, feeling, holding back.

getting "no" or "not yet" so much these days
makes me perhaps act out irresponsibly in other ways?

so i do things like shave a tiny bit out of my eyebrow
wear a key i found on a ride around my neck
i have no reasons for these things

but i feel they hold meaning regardless
and someday perhaps i will hike a mountain
the path to the top will show me how
the green moss covers all
and time passes over the slumbering world
even when i stay watchful
too watchful
the bold moon shines on
even when i stay bottled
too bottled
the ocean gushes forth

cycle is stuck. stopped in my tracks, i am.
come on, dear blood.

wind, rain, battering the windows
post-midnight rattles of the kerri-mind.
snowstuck and ready for the acceleration of summer.
last winter, my new job got me through
2 winters ago, it was learning to cook
this winter, it's my bike and music

friendly love is all?